Here's to 2018

Frankly, I only think of you when I have free time now, my dear blog.

I know I don't have the money to pay for coming semester yet, not really any time soon. But I am a little glad that I haven't officially called off the Master course.

How am I going to fill the void between work, family and friends? At this point, the answer is exercise. More exercise and discipline. 

Fine. I'll make the calls or drop by IMU to officially drop myself off the course.

It definitely sounds like excuses. Or it's my lack of passion in the science field. So far, academic achievement also means more debt. 

2019 resolution? To clear my academic debt, PTPTN and the bits I owe my brother to pay for last semester. 

SCKLM 2019 falls on end of September. I've got nine full months to train for half marathon again.
This is my record for SCKLM 2018:

My result sucks, I know. But it's not the same running half marathon unprepared as a 24 year-old (I did slightly less than three hours) versus a 28 year-old.
And I just realize how cool SCKLM is, my personal photos are easily available without having to scroll through many event photos!

I was clearly dying... 😆

I'll be back!

Yours Truly

Hello my sweet life, it's another chapter in life again soon.

Writing in to remember this moment of spontaneity, gratefulness and gathering my small bits of courage. 

It's few days of chilling time in conjunction with my birthday. (Don't you just love how things just work its way well eventually?)

I know 2014 was only less than four years ago, it sure feels like it's been a long time for so much has changed. I've got my hair chopped down to boyish length, now trying to grow it back again; I've moved from job to another, each one a different experience; I've gone from giving up on academic and research, to starting a part time Master course, estimate to finish by 30 years old; I've gone from zero dating experience to totally fine being single and enjoying it; I've finally gone back to diving and will be back to regular swimming now that I'm finally a member of the neighbourhood club house again (thank goodness! and thanks brother *heart*); I've grown from relying on one friend, to releasing myself from stubbornness and embracing more like-minded confidants...

One heartbreak to another...

One cheery moment to another...

One teary moment to another...

One joy of love to another...

One unwanted thought to another one that's been embraced and accepted.

Maybe nobody's changed, we are only gradually uncovering our true selves, or discovering or moulding it to what's supposed to be. 

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Well, nothing will ever be more important than finally truly embracing my own family and to love them wholeheartedly. 

以变应万变

这阵子好多人事物的变迁，短短的一年，好多事情都不一样了。

在Seaventure Dive Rig的最后一晚，我们欢唱着。

直到那一首【说散就散】……

说不上爱别说谎，就一点喜欢；说不上恨别纠缠，别装作感叹。将一切都体谅，将一切都原谅。我尝试找答案，而答案很简单，简单得很遗憾…… 因为成长，我们逼不得已要习惯；因为成长，我们忽尔间说散就散。

只不过是大家都有不同的成长。不同的速度、不同的方向。

说什么姐妹情、姐妹爱要天长地久。

曾经那么用心用力去解释，你也鼓励我说…… 到最后还是各自坚持己见也无所谓，但是不行诋毁彼此人格。就志不同，道不合，不相为谋。也不是每个人都可以不介意和包容异己，否则就没有那么多争吵和悲剧了。

闹得最后撕破脸的时候，我也不愿意让已经忙碌的生活沾上闹剧。

没意思。

改变不可怕，

可恨的是不接受，

应无感的是不包容和强性控制。