Another cross road. This new chapter has been fun, except it's digging into my saving.
Saving is addictive. You started saving up, you want more.
Seriously, try it.
I've been trying this method to boost my confidence, like positive enhancement.
Each day, when you feel down, or demotivated, remind yourself of what you have achieve, even small stuff like exercise. Because losing weight is one of my recent goals.
Hmm... Not gonna call it a resolution, but I do realize I've been living goal-free life, and it's brought me... not somewhere I'm super proud to be. So here goes, my goals:
1. Lose weight and get fit to 57kg, like when I first enter society.
2. Continue to find my value.
3. Get married and have kids.
Well, above all, get through this pandemic safe and soundly. From the experience of MCO 1.0 and 2.0, we would rather come out stronger right?
Alright, number one, some times ago, I heard of this idea of setting a higher target, so even if you don't achieve it, you are at quite a good state. Hence the determination to set my target at losing 10kg. Oh yes, this isn't a typo, to lose 10kg. I'm already down 1 kg, which has been sustained for about a month now.
Instead of following diet plans and programs, I'd rather make changes progressively, which I can adapt and continue for the rest of my adulthood. On top of that, there are other parts in life that need adjusting alongside. I'll get there!
Secondly, continue to find my value. Sound vague huh. Alright, for the moment, I have identified my value as a little baker. I make unique pastries and have got some repeating customers who have followed me since last year. I should rephrase this goal to "continue to find my unique value". Something that, makes me unique in this society.
Let me think this over... the value has been found, I should be building it moving forward. What do you think?
Getting back to this cross road... It's been less than 3 months going without basic salary. I feel bad.
Should I take that job? and feel financially secured... and only bake over the weekends?
Sigh.
Let me think it over after a good night sleep.
