Hey there, it's a beautiful Wednesday night.
If I were to take photos of me with my laptop sitting at a cafe each time, it'd begin in the year 2007;
the most recent one? Right now.
Hajimaru
I'm a Klangite, raised and grow up in Klang,
sister to three elder brothers, sometimes said to be the pearl in palms (掌上明珠) of my parents'.
I was a girl who can easily cry. In Mandarin we refer a person like this as ku bao (哭包).
I was also temperamental, referred as xiao qi gui (小气鬼).
These names, I carry as I grow, until I gradually learn and understand myself.
It's been a long journey of self exploration.
I have all the time to do that though, since these characteristics kinda make you anti-social.
As a kid
I'd had piano lessons and got myself through till Grade 6. Promised myself I'll continue learning one day when I stopped at age 18 but never really practice much since then.
I've got my first classical guitar from a high school senior at age 18, still remember a few chords but never really into it anyway. I own a ukulele as well, the same fate happens to it.
Teenage dream?
I've joined a performance group, namely Dandelion. On the stage, we danced while the lead singer was singing. I love the friends I've made in the group. I was still making the effort to contribute in the group when I was at university first year. Later then find it really exhausting and am now not going back to the practice session on Friday nights anymore.
Finally getting rid of those heavy school bags
The most significant bit of university life will be the three years in cheer leading with the Taurus team.
My results from first semester cling to the edge of passing grade while I allocate most of my time to procrastination and joining activities with the IMU cup.
It was the first time in my life, to be living out of house. It was most of the time so unpleasant I turn to food. That should be the dark age to my fitness and health. Yea we exercise a lot in the cheer leading training. But I remember feel exhausted and not being able to catch up with the routine which require certain level of stamina.
I was never a sport person.
Being rejected again and experienced the dramatic moment of running in the rain, wishing for the person to run to you but of course, that never happened, eh hm.
Goodbye to first year uni.
A ride to freedom
I took up first part time job as a front liner in a local dessert shop after obtaining car key passing from brother. Dearie grey Myvi is still my ride right now.
Thank you da jie (大姐). It was from her, I learnt that you can't define clear cut to everything under the sky, certain thing deserves grey area. I think I gained further that year, with all the free beverages while tendering the ice desserts and beverages in the dessert shop.
Do drop by the Lucky Jelly at Ambang Botanic if you are in Klang. I promise you they have good quality control over their ingredients.
Final year in university would be a year of change. I moved from Kuala Pilah, to Bukit Jalil; from Bukit Jalil to Seremban, from Seremban to Pulau Penang. It was those experiences that make me so comfortable living alone right now. Not much about learning to cook myself, to take care of my laundry, groceries and other housechores; I have been doing those on my own since young. These experiences truly teach me to appreciate time being alone, to accept and embrace it.
Well sometimes, I'm even worried if I'll be so comfortable being alone I'll never get life companion in future.
My first butterfly-in-the-stomach ganjiong moment was during the final year Medical Nutrition Therapy exam paper, when my touch n go was dropped out of the car while I was passing the tol.
I have been feeling this way for the past few days, I know it's not because of the period.
It's my confirmation presentation tomorrow.
Aside from the fact that the slides is not ready, I'm truly nervous about it.
Not that I'm scared if I won't perform for passing, but because it marks another milestone in my life.
Present is gift
So here I am, sitting comfortably at Frisky Goat TTDI. Spending the money not bothering too much about the price of food and drinks while I was a stingy freak.
I'm proud to say, hey, I've grown!
I love the fact that I stepped out of my comfort zone when I first sent my e-mail to Pickle&Fig to request for an interview for part time job. I love that I told Bee I'm passionate, emotional and have thinking of my own (it's kinda like saying that I'm one of a kind actually :p) during the interview.
I love most that, I'm actually balancing my full time and part time job (aside from that it's been good number of referrals I'm kinda crazily occupied). On top of that, meeting friends, trying to make time to train for cycling and marathon.
Last but not least, I'm telling people my puffy face is my trademark :目
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Appreciate what you have
right here, right now.
That's living in the moment. |
Still, it matters, the angle of photo taking :p
cheers,
